"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever"

-Greys anatomy

suck för vilken dag, eller vilken kväll/natt. hjärnan har minst sagt gått på högvarv så man blir lite slut... fortfarande helt slut... idag har det varit en sån "För Fan-dag" då man inte förstår varför i helvete man är här. men bara att gilla läget, det går över.

igår såg jag säsongsavslutningen av Criminal Minds. My girl kommer tillbaka i nästa säsong så snacka om att man är glad!



Och idag såg jag slutet av Greys Anatomy. hela avsnittet var väldigt vackert, gripande.. det var också väldigt tråkigt att vissa förhållanden verkar gå i stöpet.. de går ju inte.. anyway, när det är ett väldigt känsloladdat avsnitt rycks jag liksom med så det slutade med att jag satt å storbölade just för att saknar henne så otroligt mkt. jag vill bara ha henne hos mig, känna hennes närhet, känna mig trygg och inte helt hopplös. vaknade flera gånger inatt av att det var så tomt i sängen, varje gång jag vände mig om trodde jag hon skulle ligga där. det enda som låg bredvid mig var två mobiler, hennes sjal och hunden Sara... suck..



nu ska man strax se Unknown.... saknar min tjej fruktansvärt mkt, så för att kunna komma lite närmare varann så ska vi se på den filmen på varsitt håll samtidigt :)

http://www.tvfanatic.com/videos/blind-love-promo/

KaDee Strickland borde få en oscar/grammy/whatever för hennes rollspel i Private Practice. Shonda Rimes borde få oscar/grammy/whatever för hennes sprudlande idéer.

overandout

"But the worst deception we practice is on ourselves. Which is why sometimes it takes us a while to realize that the truth has been in front of us the whole time."

-Meredith Grey

"The goal of any surgery is total recovery - to come out better than you were before. Some patients heal quickly and feel immediate relief. For others the healing happens gradually, and it's not until months or even years later that you realize you don't hurt anymore. So the challenge after any surgery is to be patient. But if you can make it through the first weeks and months, if you believe that healing is possible, then you can get your life back. But that's a big if."

-Meredith Grey

"Under the cover of darkness, people do things they never do under the harsh glare of day. Decisions feel wiser. People feel older. But, when the sun rises, you have to take responsibility for what you did in the dark. And face yourself under the cold harsh light of day

-Meredith Grey

Every pressurized system needs a relief valve. There has to be a way to reduce the stress, the tension, before it becomes too much to bare. There has to be a way to find relief because if the pressure doesn't find a way out, it will make one. It will explode. It's the pressure we put on ourselves that's the hardest to bare. The pressure to be better then we already are. The pressure to be better than we think we can be. It never ever lets up. It just builds and builds and builds

-Meredith Grey

Nu följer listan på vad jag har gjort idag:






























jävla huvudvärk/migrän... fan ta den om den är kvar imorgon!
strax innan 20 idag förflyttade jag mig från sängen till soffan... hatar det här. vad jag än gör så exploderar det.... en cigg har jag också, har inte orkat på hela dagen heller men nu känner jag mig lite sugen...ofräsh är jag med. visserligen gick jag upp kl 6 imorse för att duscha men det känns det inte nu (skulle jobba idag, börja 8 men efter turen i duschen kom jag knappt därifrån för det gjorde så ont)
Tänk 23 bast å migrän för första gången EVER, inte illa pinkat...

imorgon:

We are all looking for answers. In medicine, in life, in everything.
Sometimes the answers we were looking for were hiding just below the
surface. Other times, we find answers when we didn't realize we were
asking a question. Sometimes, the answers can catch us completely by
surprise. And sometimes, even when we find t...he answer we've been looking
for, we're still left with a whole helluva lot of questions

-Meredith Grey

We all want to grow up. We're desperate to get there. Grab all the opportunities we can to live. We're so busy trying to get out of that mess, we don't think about the fact that it's going to be cold out there. Really freaking cold. Because growing up sometimes means leaving people behind. And by the time we stand on our own two feet, we're standing there alone.

-Meredith Grey

"Life changes us. We develop new traits. Become less territorial. We start competing. We learn from our mistakes. We face our greatest fears. For better or worse, we find ways to become more than our biology. The risk of course is that we can change too much to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Finding our way back can be difficult. There's no compass, no map. We just have to close our eyes, take a step, and hope to God we get there"

-Meredith Gray

Lightning doesn't often strike twice. It's a once in a lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually the pain will go away, the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself. To recover from something you never saw coming. But, sometimes the odds are in your favor. If you're in just the right place at just the right time you can take a helluva hit. And still have a shot at surviving

-Meredith Gray

"Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again"

-meredith grey

exakt så känns det. förändring är lika med, död för mig. men något jag har lärt mig under detta år som gått är att förnuft och känsla är två helt olika saker. förnuftsmässigt vet jag att jag inte kommer att dö. men det känns så

bad dreams bad dreams go away

good dream good dreams are here to stay.

You're producing endorphins in me

Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.

Lexie: Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance.